I have been working at living and breathing "whitespace" for about 8 months now. I've felt stalled in my own art making, not stirred or passioned about my projects, and so I've been focused on listening. Trying to quiet my own rantings and stressings so that I could uncover that small inspired voice within. I've been making time for rest and allowing myself to breathe instead of striving for more.
In December I was challenged to hang an ornament that represented my spiritual life, and this empty glass globe presented itself. It has sat here on my shelf since then, serving as a reminder of my need to empty so that I am more open to the whispers of my design. I get so cluttered with thoughts, ideas, and stressors, filling with things that are not as important as I make them; and it causes me to miss out on the greater, and sometimes simpler things.
Today, change happened. Or not really change, but an uncovering of what was already present, woven into the very fiber of my being. I've been waiting for change, for an awakening to what lies next. But Emily Freeman, author of A Million Little Ways has made me realize that I needed to look within and look back instead of straining to see what lies ahead. And there I found it.
A seed. A seed of what brings joy to my heart. What brings tears to my eyes. What moves me to true hope and passion. A seed that I can remember being planted as early as Kindergarten. A seed so simple and obvious that it has really been right here all along but I have been dismissing it and looking for something else. This seed bears a call to give a voice to those without voices. An idea that anyone can see has been wrapped into my life, but there is so much more. That seed is stirring.
But for now it is a seed. And I will continue to wait, because I am not the one who can make it grow, but I am the one who can receive and follow the design laid out for me. It may be a year, it may be a decade. But I know this seed will grow, and I can't wait to share it with you when it does.
And my glass ornament is no longer empty.